I've been busy. Yesterday was my day off, and I think I spent it well enough, though I forgot to do my laundry. Ugh. I hate when I do that. But other than yesterday I've been at the Guthrie all day every day, for the most part. We've spent hours in rehearsals, many of which I've spent reading, because I'm not always on stage. But we've also started preview performances, and those are going well. On my off hours, at night after a 10-12 hour day in the city, I've gone home and watched Lost: Season 1. It is amazing. What can I say about that show. I had heard it was very good by many different sources, but I didn't know how good. It's not just creepy and weird and exciting and dramatic. But it deals with real issues: faith, pain, crisis, good and evil, fear, health, troubled pasts, relationships. It's deep, and it's mysterious, enthralling, riveting. If it weren't for Cassie, I think I'd want it for a lover. haha.
Anyway, it's actually hard for me to feel like I'm growing as a person when I'm just constantly busy, so I don't always feel that I have something deep and meaningful to talk about. But at the same time, I feel like what I'm doing with myself has great value. I may just be an extra in a show at a nice theatre in Minneapolis, but I love doing it. I love the energy of the crowd as we give our performances. I love the anticipation in the air as the actors prepare themselves mentally and physically to go on stage. I love immersing myself in the story and placing myself in another time and place.
My writing has suffered from the lack of energy when I get home at night, but I've been able to get some things accomplished, just on Monday and today. The story is starting to wrap up, which means I'm actually building to the climax. It's actually quite difficult. I don't want to rush it, but I want it to move along and build up in intensity. It's a trial, and sometimes I don't feel like I'm up to the task of completing it. It's just daunting, even though I've come this far.
Anyway, that's all for now. I look forward to continuing on Lost as soon as I can. We'll see when that will be. I need to find Disc 6 of Season One, because it's missing from the set I'm borrowing. Urrr... That's, uh... that's my... angry face.