I love spring. I can't stand the long cold of winter anymore. I need a place where the weather is nice, where green plants are growing and the sun is shining. Today is the best spring day we've had so far. It wasn't hot or oppressive like some summer days can be. It was cool, refreshing, the sun shinging, the breeze blowing. I was agitated earlier today. I was cooped up in this church where I lead music, plainning the worship set for Sunday and just hanging out, reading and the like. I couldn't stand it. I was going crazy and making myself frustrated and angry. So I decided I was just so restless, I needed to go for a walk. Lo and behold, it was gorgeous. It was brilliant and perfect outside, as I walked down Hastings. Even with all the cars driving by, which usually I don't care for, I loved being outside, looking at all the houses and admiring the trees and the grass that was turning green again.
I also came to a realization: I need to start some form of gardening. This may seem weird, because I'm a guy and, well, I just don't know of a lot of gardeners who are not either women or rather elderly. But you have to start some time. The thing is, gardening isn't exactly something that's been available to me in the past 8 years. But the truth is, I'd rather plant trees. I love trees and seeing them grow and seeing life develop and spring up. That's part of why I love spring. Everything is so full of life: all the colors are brilliant, all the feelings are vibrant, and everything is more upbeat. Spring makes me smile with more genuine happiness than possibly anything else I've experienced. The only downpoint is the loneliness. I would love to walk through some place more remote, with less cars and useless shops, but I'd feel very alone without the right person there with me. I don't know. Nevertheless, I'm going to enjoy this spring as much as I can. If I were an expressive person, I think people would be surpriised at my feelings, because I don't always show them. Now I'm back in this dingy church, and it's really dim and there's no sun, so I'm going to go outside and read.